Fierce trials over the last three months.
My father is in the process of healing his family karma through reincarnation therapy.
And I resonate full force.
His healing process is my healing process and I have no choice but to go along and do my own inner work on this piece.
For 12 years now I have been doing deep inner process work with myself. But nothing I’ve worked through before has been as intense as this one.
I’m going for it, too, I have to say. In the run-up to the publication of 2044, I find it wonderful to be able to heal a large piece of (family) karma. That just makes me a better channel and instrument when it erupts next.
Session after session I undergo. With my teachers and mentors, with colleagues and friends.
I’m working through pieces I didn’t already know in relation to my father, my grandmother, my great-grandparents, some relevant past lives and much more.
A rain of insights pour over me day after day. Meditating, contemplating, writing, talking about it with like-minded people. (Besides work and family of course) And sometimes just dive into a movie, socials, cigar moment, or book. It’s all part of the process.
But how heavy it feels… Everything hurts. My chest area, my stomach, my back, my shoulders… and I’m tired… exhausted…
Process work is not necessarily nice if you’re in the middle of it. I have no desire or energy for anything. I don’t look the part to me (which is totally ok). I feel run-down and saggy. It’s just what it is and it’s all part of the game.
Inner process work is not a quick fix either.
Everything is felt and lived through.
There is no other way to achieve true integration.
It’s also very nice and rewarding in a paradoxical way….
It’s like I’m simultaneously allowed to slog through the mud and swim in a tub of champagne.
But I enjoy it intensely.
It gets even brighter inside.
Go deeper and deeper.
I know I’m doing this for the generations before me and for myself.
But especially for the generations after me. My sons and their descendants.
Deep thanks to my wife Monique, the children, my brother and partner Hans Wijnen the Bridgeman team, the Terranovians and all the friends and family who give me so much love, support and space.
And to all the facilitators who help and support me in the processes.
And of course a big thank you to my parents for making this possible by doing their own inner work.
I have a feeling we’re going to see a few more big floors in the next few weeks….
X Robert Bridgeman