Stop pretending to be a ‘normal’ person
Waiting for a late guest, I sit on the porch. Terra Nova Center is asleep. It is pitch dark, a candle is burning on the table in front of me. I muse on the beauty of life as a human being. Throughout my childhood and adolescence I felt a burning desire to experience what it is like to live a life as a normal human being. A ‘normal’ life. Now I know I’ll never be normal. You don’t have to and… what’s normal? Believe me, I tried when I was younger. To blend in, to its like all the others. To to be accepted by the people around me.
I remember the frustration I had when that didn’t work out again. No matter how I tried, no matter how much I tried, I was always different. An unusual one, an odd one out. I was often afraid of being left out. To be expelled. At school, I acted tough so I wouldn’t be thought a nerd. In company I had a big mouth to keep a low profile. I was afraid… terrified of being left out. And that fear drove me into a “normal” life. Just act natural and you’ll be fine. I had jobs that didn’t suit me and married a woman I would never be happy with. I pretended not to be what I was. Tougher, steadier, bigger. I pretended I liked football too. As if I thought it was important to talk about the news. Like I cared what stock market did. As if I cared how I performed in my job. It was a big farce. Football didn’t interest me one bit in reality and I couldn’t keep up with the stock market at all. Let alone that I cared about cars, or what was on TV last night….
But it helped me feel one with everyone else. Not to be the odd man out. To feel accepted and appreciated. Fortunately, I was able to leave those days behind me. These days I embrace being different. I’m just an outsider. I’m just sensitive and vulnerable. Nowadays I know that there are many like me. And that we are strong together. Much of my current existence is about helping others who are like me and who are still living the lie awaken. To help them see that they can embrace their difference. Lightworkers are simply different from earthlings. Not better, or less, but different. We’re born that way.
My love goes out to all those lightworkers who are different like me. Who are excluded and fight to be accepted. To be normal. When there’s no need to. My heart goes out to all those souls. And I wish them all to embrace their different. That they stop doing the things they don’t really have to do in this life. That they give up that job that they actually have for fear of falling out of the boat and start doing what lightworkers have to do: Namely facilitate humanity’s shift in consciousness from the 3rd to the 5th dimension. Shining light in the darkness. Serving Mother Earth in her process of ascension and reducing suffering until harmony is established in the world. I allow them to listen to their souls, which tells them through their soul desires and passions what they are here to do. May they yield to it and experience the same fulfillment that I have experienced in recent years. If you’re one of them. If you have always felt different and are trying with all your might to blend in and be accepted I have the following, loving message for you:
Stop doing that 😉
And go do what you came here on earth to do. Stop pretending to be a “normal” person, with a normal job and normal behavior, normal values and a normal, especially not floaty, lifestyle. You’re different. Probably even different from your parents and your brothers and/or sisters. You are a unique individual walking his or her own path. You don’t like displays of power, arrogance, ego behavior and authoritarian people. You are a born helper who loves nothing more than helping others, human and animal. You are spiritual and feel drawn to awareness. You may not feel at home on earth at all, an oddity. You hate aggression against people, nature and animals and you stand up for the weak. No matter how you present yourself, you are probably gentle, sensitive and empathetic. Often, in the course of your life, a conditioned mask has developed over it. But you know damn well that’s not who you are. You easily pick up the energies and emotions of others and as a child you were already a dreamer, an idealist, a do-gooder-in-the-making. If you recognise yourself in the above, chances are that you are a lightworker.
It’s so nice to be different.
It is so nice to realize that you have been living in the fifth dimension for a long time. But that you behave in a 3rd dimension way to be accepted! How would it be if you admitted you were different. If you would shake off the 3rd dimension and realize yourself in the consciousness vibration that you already have have.
A vibration of love, wisdom and compassion
You may come out for your spirituality.
You may show your gifts and higher faculties.
You can talk about your past lives.
You get to heal people.
You get to go on the barricades to help Mother Earth and nature.
You get to be your divine self.
And you know what? If we all do that…
Then we are an unstoppable force field.
And then the earth will be fine.
And then humanity and all the other creatures that live on her will be fine.
From my porch I greet you with a loving heart, a big smile and a deep gratitude. Because how beautiful you are when you show your authentic self. Without fear, without shame, without restraint.